I'm not pregnant!!

Haha!! I certainly shouldn't have been pregnant, but I was worried. I had my sterilization procedure done in September. I had a regular period in October, and just about 30 days later again in November. I was pretty certain I'd have another regular period around December 15th or so. Not the 15th. Or the 16th. Or the 19th. Not the 21st. Not even by Christmas! I was getting worried that somehow the surgery had failed and I had gotten pregnant. I've been off work since last weekend, and today was my first shift since last week. While I was there, I got my period!!! That is really not something I want to have to stress about...

Completed all Santa tasks...

I just finished eating the cookie that was my reward for staying up later than Todd and Luc. I waited about 15 minutes after I was certain they were asleep to go into stealth mode and remove the stockings from above their heads and retreat to my room to fill them. The hardest part was putting the filled stockings back on the hooks without waking them up. I got Luc a kaleidoscope for his stocking and all the little beads in it made all kinds of tinkly little noises as I tried to get the loop of the stocking back around the little hook.
It would have been much easier if they would have just slept in their own room, in their own beds. But they are on opposite ends of the couch just hoping to get a glimpse of the old man when he arrives.
The whole idea of Santa is so magical, that I want them to believe. I hate to lie to them, but my Mom told me there was no Santa when I was in kindergarten or first grade. (I know for sure that I did not believe in first grade, but I can't remember if that was the first year or second.) I just want my children to be children as long as they can. I want them to wonder and feel the magic; even if that means lying to them. I don't know, but I am fairly certain this will be the last year that Todd will believe. He is nine and in the fourth grade. He has doubts, but he also still wants to believe. We went to a Christmas party at the VFW hall that Todd's sister works at last weekend, and we knew Santa would be coming. Todd Jr kept glancing back to the entrance way every time we heard anything that might indicate Santa was there. When Santa did arrive, just seeing the look on Todd's face was great...
Fall classes are over, and Winter classes are soon to begin. My grades posted yesterday. Economics-A, Business Law-A, Federal Tax Accounting-A, Intermediate Accounting I-B+. Eh. I was .21% away from an A-. The grading in that class sucked. I mean, I work hard for my grades and I wouldn't complain if I had not worked hard enough to achieve an A, but this teacher assigned a bunch of writing assignments that were worth a lot of points and then didn't grade very fairly. I should have had an A, but I would have been okay with an A-. This B+ pisses me off. So, after 3 straight semesters of 4.0 gpa's, this semester was 3.8. Not bad, but not what I worked for. On the bright side, though; I will receive both my accounting certificate and my advanced accounting certificate in the mail within the next three weeks. I will be framing them as though they were my degree, which by the way I will have in April. I've worked for these suckers!!

The craziness!!

Wow! Where to even start? Okay. It's almost midnight. I am sitting in my kitchen on my laptop with peanut butter cookies cooling on the countertop. I got out of work at a few minutes after ten o'clock tonight and still had to bake cookies for a bakesale at the boys' school tomorrow morning. Yes, the boys' school. Tomorrow is Todd;s first day going to the same school as Luc. I am back and forth about how I feel about this decision. The school Todd was going to is a great school, but as a talented school, a lot of the work he has, I get stuck "doing". I have enough school work of my own, thankyouverymuch.
As long as I'm on the subject of school, I am almost done with this semester. I have a final exam tomorrow morning in my tax class, I am completely done with both Economics and Business Law, and my Intermediate Accounting class ends Thursday. I still have one chapter of accounting and a semester-long project that I (gulp) still haven't started...
Work sucks. Not much else to say on that.
I love the new hair.
I want to eat some of these cookies.
It's almost Christmas. I have all of the shopping for my kids, sister in law, mom, and Luc's teachers and bus driver done. Now I have my mil, fil, and dh left to shop for. I know what I want to get my mil and dh. Mil is getting another shutterfly photo book of the boys. (She cried last year.) I want to get dh a new robe, but not sure what else yet. How is your shopping coming??

I have been craving change.

I found this cute purse a few days ago. I wanted it, but at the same time, knowing how close it is to Christmas and the shopping I still have to do, I didn't want to buy it for myself. Today, I did. I also did something else I have been contemplating for a while now. What do you think??

My middle son...

He just melts my heart.

What do you think?

Okay, here's the thing. I have two sisters with kids. Between them, they have 5 kids. I have 3 of my own, and I know I'm not going to have a lot of money to spend on my nieces and nephews for Christmas. But I want to do something nice for them. I want to make it a tradition that I make/buy them all the same thing each year, but personal. I am thinking about doing stockings with their names on them this year. I am thinking this because the youngest one is my nephew who is only about 6 months old. I had considered making them all matching pajamas, but I don't want him to outgrow them super fast, so I will wait for things like that for about two more years I think.

I am okay with a sewing machine, but I don't have a ton of time to spend on each item. I am looking to spend about $5-7 each.

My questions are:

What else could I make for them that wouldn't be too hard to do or too expensive?

OR- what would be a good way to do their stockings? I am thinking about buying them each a nice plush stocking and then adding their names somehow, but how??

Any thoughts???

My oldest son...

My baby. He is making me feel old.

My new job

Today was my third day at TJ Maxx. I am so back and forth about whether I like it or not. I don't like it because it's retail and it's stressful and the hours suck and the pay pretty much sucks. BUT the hours are the same I would get in any retail job, the pay, too. It's stressful in possibly a good way. How? Well, it keep s me active. Extremely active. I think stress like this can actually be good for me. It's a responsibility. It keeps me thinking. Of course I have someone to answer to, but if it doesn't go right or if it doesn't get finished, I'm not going to be upset or get a bad grade or anything. The people I work with all seem really nice. I was scheduled to work this Friday (Halloween) from 5 to 10. I was upset because I wanted to take my kids out trick or treating. I asked this one girl if she would want to trade shifts so I could have that evening off. She agreed to do it right away.
They have contests with how many credit card applications you get. I won a can of diet Pepsi and a popcorn ball for talking with someone about a credit card when they brought it up to me. I wasn't pushing it or anything.
So, I hate it, but I like it. We'll see in the next few weeks as it gets more into the holiday season and people piss me off more.

Winter Semester!!

I currently have 69 credits, so I get to preregister for classes on Monday!! I only have 4 classes left that I'm required to take, but those 4 only equal 11 credits. To keep my financial aid, I have to take 1 more credit. So, I'm registering for 5 classes. The optional class I'm taking is Outlook. Seriously. It's a 1 credit class to learn about Outlook and email and calendar options of Outlook. Okay. Could I get an easier class? I don't think so!!

Too long

yeah. It's been entirely too long. I haven't had internet at home in over a month! Insanity. It has been corrected, though. I re-ordered DSL with AT+T over a week ago; close to two weeks. Every day they tell me that my DSL will be reconnected the next day. Every day, the same thing. So, I called Charter and had cable installed today that is FIVE TIMES FASTER for $10 less every month. I also got a wireless router so I can go anywhere in the house on my laptop while Todd uses the desktop in the bedroom or games online with the 360 or PS3 (or PSP, even). I am so happy I can't even describe. This whole time we've been without internet at home, I've spent hours of most days at the public library or at Todd's parents house with my laptop doing homework. It sucks because most of my work is actually online and inaccessible without an internet connection, so I was very limited in what I could get done at home. The one class that took up the most time, was an Economics class. It ended last weekend. It took up so much time because it was a condensed class; 14 week course completed in 7 weeks. I am SO glad it's over!
In other news, I got a job!! A sucky job, but a job nonetheless!! I start on Monday at TJ Maxx. I had basically swore I'd never do retail again, but I have bills to pay and kids to feed, so until something better comes along, it is what it is.
Luc has been acting up in school. His teacher has basically said he's not ready for kindergarten, but I can't put him back in preschool (by law) since he already turned 5.

More later...

First class

Today was the first class of the fall semester. I'm taking 4 classes; Intermediate Accounting I, Business Law, Federal Tax Accounting, and Principles of Economics I. Tonight was Intermediate Accounting I. It was okay. Now I have a realistic idea of how much work there will be. There will be a lot. So, now I know for sure that 3 of these classes are going to be a lot of work. My 4th class starts this Monday, and I'm pretty sure that one will have a lot of work as well. I'm getting a little nervous. I'm starting to think I may have jumped in a little too deep. I know I worry like this at the beginning of every semester, but now that I'm so close to graduating, I know the work only gets harder. Aaaaaahhhhh. I just need to quit worrying.
Tomorrow morning, I get to take Luc to his Kindergarten meeting. It's just us and his teacher, so he can get acquainted with the classroom and stuff. I'm sure he'll have fun.
The past few weeks, I've read 4 books by Nora Roberts. Just the past few days I read her book Genuine Lies. It was really good. Really good! Now I won't be able to read for enjoyment for a while, so at least I can remember that the last book I read by choice was worth it! Tomorrow I have to start reading for these classes. I have by Monday to read one chapter of Macroeconomics and another chapter of Business Law. By Tuesday to read one chapter of my accounting book, and 3 chapters of an accounting writing handbook. Now that sounds like fun!!

Tomorrow...

My oldest son starts the fourth grade. I remember being his age very well. When I started the fourth grade, I'd already been wearing a training bra for about a year. During the fourth grade, a few specific things stick out in my mind. First, I was second place in the spelling bee in our school. I ended up in second place after I spelled receive, "recieve". I kept telling myself in my head "i before e". I guess I left out the "except after c" part. The second thing that I remember also coincides with the third thing. During class, we always had to do multiplication facts out loud. The teacher would pick any kid in the room and give a problem, and we would have to answer. I never got any wrong. Ever. When we did timed sheets, I was always the first one done and never had any wrong. (Being perfect was important to me.) He picked me. 7X6. I responded 41. Wrong!! "I'm sorry, it's 42." I could have died! I know it's no big deal, but it was to me. I was very shy and had a hard time speaking up as it was, and then I got that wrong! How does that tie in with my third memory? I developed my first big crush in the fourth grade. Who was it? Mt teacher. Yeah. That's embarrassing to admit, but I did. So, I looked like a failure (in my mind) to this person that meant a lot to me. It was rough.
So, now my baby is starting fourth grade. Our lives are very different. I was also the oldest child. I also had to wash the dishes all the time. But, I had more freedom in the aspect that I could play outside in our yard whenever I wanted, and did. Todd also loves to be outside, but he can't go out whenever he wants and he can't be unsupervised. He has never climbed a tree or walked in the woods alone. We just don't have that here.
School work was fun to me. It was a challenge and I felt good every day doing my homework as soon as I walked in the door. My Mom never checked my work or asked if I had any. With Todd, not only do I have to ask if he has any, I have to tell him when to do it, and I have to check it as he goes.
By the time I was in fourth grade, I had had the "sex talk". It was probably the worst experience of my young life. I never told my Mom about it, or anyone else now that I think about it, until I told my husband about it. We were at a friend of my Mom and George's. (George is my Mom's husband. They started dating when I was 4, just after my Mom left my Dad. They got married when I was 16.) My Mom and George were always heavy drinkers, and they had taken me and my two sisters and brother to a friend's house so they could drink and we would all spend the night. After a few hours of watching movies with the other kids, I was the only one of us kids still awake. I have no idea how the conversation was started, but it was just George and I. He said something about boys, and then asked me if I knew what sex was. I said that I did, and he asked if I knew how it was done. I said no and was really, really embarrassed. He told me, and I swear these were his exact words, "It's when a guy puts his thing between a girl's legs." I knew before that point it involved a penis, but that was the extent of my knowledge. What he said confused me and made me very uncomfortable. He was drunk and smelled like beer. He was very close to me, and I just didn't think we should talk about things like that. I didn't understand. I thought it was literally done like that. The thing between a girl's legs. I didn't understand what the big deal was about that. I don't think I even knew I had a vagina. It was a very uncomfortable experience, and sadly one that I've never been able to get out of my memory.
My son will be nine in just about a month. (October 3rd) I haven't had any sex talk with him. He has learned some things in school, and we have talked about how babies are born. He asked how babies got in the Mommy's tummy. I have read in different places that you should answer kids questions directly and not add extra information unless they ask for it. So, I told him that the Mommy's have eggs and the Daddy's can turn the eggs into babies. He seemed happy enough with that answer, so until he has any more questions, I'm just going to leave it alone.
So, I am very proud of my son. He grows and learns every day. But at the same time, I am very sad that he is getting older. Very sad.

My family...

Just cuz they're so cu-ute!!



(Thanks Leigh, I love them!!)

About time for an update, huh??

Well, it's almost time to be going back to school. Todd starts the 2nd, and Luc starts the 8th. My first class is Thursday evening (the 4th). I have Luc's bus schedule and we have a kindergarten meeting set with his teacher the Friday before he starts school. It's just to get used to the classroom and meet the teacher again, and just get comfortable. I'm still waiting to hear from the transportation department with Todd's bus schedule. His class list will be posted online tomorrow. I think they are waiting way too long to post it, but I'm just a lowly parent. That's one thing I really like about Luc's school so far; they really seem to care about parent opinions.
Today seemed like the first day of fall. It was overcast all day. I haven't left the house even once. I spent the day baking. Todd Jr and I baked three loaves of banana and 5 mini loaves. I started cooking some stewing beef last night, so I let that cook all day and added some carrots and frozen homemade noodles. Have you ever had homemade beef noodle soup?? It's awesome. While we were eating dinner, we noticed a tree outside our kitchen window. All of the leaves at the top of that tree are turning red.
I love fall...

Crafty Days...

Today, Todd told me he wanted me to make him a bag out of these fabric squares I have. (They look like bandanas; they're called batik squares.) He didn't have any idea what he wanted, so I decided to make a messenger bag. I used the batik for the sides facing out, and two layers of this soft, thin black fabric for the inside. For the flat parts like the front and back and the flap that hangs over the front, I put pieces of cardboard wrapped in batting between the pieces of fabric to keep the shape of the bag. I don't have a strap for it yet.
Here it is before I sewed the sides together.
Inside... (those white spots aren't really there, must be my camera...)

Here it is sewn together...

Looking inside...

Side view...

I think it's too wide. I'm considering taking a few inches off each side. First, I want to get a strap on it and put some books in it, and see what Todd thinks.

Here is the blanket I made after I trimmed the yarn ties down to an inch each.

Thoughts??

I'm making this blanket for my friend's son for his 5th birthday. (He's a dino-freak!) It's on Saturday and I am just about done! It took me four days start to finish. I just finished tying off all of the yarn. I'm putting all of these pics here to show as much of it as I can. Should I cut the yarn ties shorter? I would have rather not even used yarn, but I have a small sewing machine and couldn't fit the whole blanket in to do the quilting. What do you guys think of it? Specifically the yarn ties?

The weekend

Not too much going on. We are almost prepared for school. If it were up to me, we would be completely done getting prepared for school, but the boys insist they need new backpacks. I mean, I just bought every thing they could possibly need brand new. Why do I have to buy another new backpack for each of them when the ones they have look new still? I guess if I were the one going to elementary school, too, I would want a new one. But I hate to do it. So, Grandma is. I told her I didn't think it was necessary, so she offered to buy them. She also bought them each three pairs of pants and a shirt for school and mailed them to us. My Mom is a really good Grandma at times.
We organized all of Todd's school stuff yesterday. He got a list of necessary supplies with the letter that gave us the date for orientation. Luckily, we have everything he needed, plus a lot more. We still need to get him a red ink pen. Can you believe that in a house with three students, I can't find one damn red pen?? Other than that, I bought way too much stuff. When I find Crayola crayons on sale for $.20 a box, I can't resist buying 8 boxes. I'm waiting for Luc's orientation to see if there is a list of needed supplies for him.
I went out to the college the other day and bought my books for my four fall classes. Four classes. Five books. $751. Seriously. I still can't breathe.
School starts for Todd and Luc on September 2nd. My first class that I have to show up for starts that Thursday, the 4th. I have two online classes that start before then, but they don't have any specific time. I can do that stuff at 2AM if I want. Only two more semesters. 7 1/2 months. I can barely wait.

What do you think? Cute. I just wish Luc would wear more than just underpants...

You are NOT gonna believe this!!

I'm still in shock!
I was laying in bed last night and I couldn't sleep because of my fucking neighbors. It is unbelievably how some people behave! I went to bed too late last night because I was reading a book that I couldn't convince myself to put down. I knew I had to get up at 7:30 to get Luc up for school, but I didn't turn my light off until about 12:30 last night. I woke up to shouting around 1:00. I looked out my kitchen window to see a group of people on the porch of one of the houses down the block. They looked like they were drinking and having a good time. It irritated me, but whatever. I turned on the air conditioner in my room to drown out some of their noise, shut my door and went back to sleep. I was really tired. I woke up to screaming. Not just regular screaming; it sounded like the person screaming was saying the same thing over and over. My first thought was someone's house was on fire. I got up and went to the kitchen window again, and it was those same people. No fire, though. They were holding one guy back from fighting someone else. All of them were screaming. It went on for over hour. They started in front of their house which is two houses down on the opposite side of the street as our house. They went out in the street. They went in front of their neighbors house. They crossed the street and were on the sidewalk in front of people's houses. Screaming and screaming. Todd called the cops. After about an hour, a group of them, obviously drunk, got in a car and sped away. The guy who had been held back was still out there screaming at the people who were now in the house. The last I saw of him, he was walking down the street screaming his thoughts to no one but himself. Then, a few minutes later the cops finally drove past.
Back to my point... I was laying in bed and couldn't sleep. My thoughts were just everywhere. I ended up thinking that Benny is about the age the older boys were when I put the potty seat in the bathroom so they could sit on it when other people (Todd, myself) were going to the bathroom. Considering both boys were potty trained pretty young, I want to give him the same start. So, when I got up and used the bathroom this morning, I pulled the potty seat out for Benny. It was weird because I asked him "do you want to go potty?" and he made a noise that was both interested and seemed like a yes, and he pointed to the corner I was planning on putting the potty. So, I got it out. I wiped the dust off it, and put it in the corner. I picked Benny up and took his diaper off, then sat his naked little butt on the potty. I turned some water on to trick him into peeing. Then, brushed my teeth. He just sat there. As I was rinsing my toothbrush, he got up and was trying to open the box of wipes that was on the floor. I went to pick him up and take him to put a diaper on. I looked over and saw....... POOP IN THE POTTY!!! Pee, too, but I expected that. Oh. My. God. All I can say.

Haha!!

Monday...

Well, weight loss sucks. Or maybe just lack of weight loss sucks. I am very disappointed and feel like I wasted a whole week. I know, deep down, that it was a positive experience and even if I didn't lose like anything, I am stronger. I know that I can do something if I decide I want to. I can get through a week, yes a whole week, without chocolate. I walked multiple miles every day. I did 50 push ups every day. I did at least 100 crunches every day. I lost two pounds. That two pounds registered the 2nd morning. So, I feel that the last 6 days made no progress. I am pretty despondent, but I'll get through it. It just sucks.
I found a position online today that I applied for. It's a part time accounting clerk position. I am crossing all my fingers and toes. My only problem: I worry about my experience and resume. I've never done anything like what I'm studying. I know without any doubts at all that I can do the work flawlessly after a short time of training. But I don't have any previous employers who can back that up for me. The ad says that they want a student majoring in business or accounting, so... I hope!!! My stomach hurts when I think about it because I know this would be the perfect start for my career.

bla bla

What's going on with me? Nothing to say lately.
I've started the past few days to work out every day and really trying to watch what I eat. It's hard because I'm still breastfeeding this monster-child. Now that my thyroid levels are finally normal, I hope that this makes a difference. Isn't that crazy? I had that sucker removed in April of 2006, and the levels have just recently normalized. Between the thyroid being removed and the following pregnancy/breastfeeding extravaganza, my body just doesn't know what normal is.
So, wish me luck. I'm trying not to focus on weight, but I guess more... size. If that makes sense. I want to fit in all of the clothes that I have outgrown by Christmas. I think that's realistic. And then, I want to be able to wear a nice dress at my graduation in May. That's almost a year. I've heard of many people who have lost 100 pounds in a year, so I should be able to slim down, right??
Luc went to his summer program all last week. He really enjoyed it. He ended up sick on Sunday night. He was better by 11:00 pm, so I took him and dropped him off Monday morning. I took Todd with me to a local park and we went rollerblading. (I told you I'm trying to get in shape!) By the time we got home, Luc was laying on the couch. ??Uuummm?? What?? Grandma went and got him because he was sick. So, he didn't go again today just to be sure he's feeling better. He hasn't needed tylenol today and he's been playing so I think he's back to normal.
About the rollerblading trip... There is this pond in our town that has a paved path that surrounds it. We went and rollerbladed around it. I just got the rollerblades because Todd just learned how use his and I thought it would be a good thing to do together. I hadn't rollerbladed since I was about 15, so 10 years!! The first time around the pond, Todd fell about 20 times. When we got around by the parking lot, he decided to put his shoes back on. He went to play in the park, and I went around on my own. I went around 4 more times. I was feeling good. I was moving fast, too! The 4th time around, I was about 3/4's of the way to the end, and I lost my balance. There was no stopping it. I fell. I skinned and bruised both knees and my right wrist. I was so embarrassed! It didn't look like anyone saw me, but I felt like an idiot anyway. So, I got up, and poured water on my bloody wounds to clean them up. I thought about taking the skates off and walking back to the parking lot, but I sucked it up, and limp-skated back. I put my shoes on and walked around again twice.
Today, I started jumproping in my garage. At least in there, my neighbors won't laugh at me...
So that's it so far.

a few days

So, I've been blank a few days. Well, maybe just here.
I've joined an awesome new forum. I really encourage any mommy friends to join there! I've only been a member a few days, and I love it!!
In ebay news, both of the items I listed for auction sold. I didn't make much money, but I am quite happy anyway. I did make a little cash. Maybe a gallon or two of gas.
For next time, I have to figure out how to sell only to buyers in the US. Nothing against anyone in any other country, but I get charged more through paypal and shipping costs more. The swimming trunks I sold are being sent to Germany. Addresses confuse me. US addresses make sense, but addresses in other countries confuse me. Are all the letters supposed to be lower case?
Still searching for a job.
Tomorrow Luc starts Kindergarten Kamp. I'm excited for him, but at the same time extremely worried that there is going to be a problem. Luc first of all, has apraxia. He is harder to understand than other children, and some people mistake that for him being less intelligent. He also is very self conscious. He will not sing, dance, skip, or anything that makes him uncomfortable. Even in a group. I have just got him to sing his ABC's. Even overlooking all of these things that put worry in my mind for my baby; this is a ghetto school that is hosting this program. Very ghetto. I don't need him being bullied or being pushed around. I also don't like the influence some of those kids will have on him. I hate to say that just because the program is held there, that that is the way things will be, but I can't say that it won't. The best I can do is give it a try. If I take him and the people who run it or the children who attend it, seem to be a bad influence or just plain mean, then I just won't take him back. Hopefully it will be great and a good experience to prepare him for Kindergarten in September. I want him to make friends and have fun.
Todd's parents invited us to their house for a bbq this afternoon.

It's TUEsday...

Not much to say. I cooked and cleaned today. I've become addicted to a forum. My baby bit my nipple through my clothes (!!) while we were diaper shopping. It sucked. That's it for today.

Term GPA

4.000

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I'm an eBay seller!!

As of today, I am now a seller!! I have a few things I want to list tomorrow, but I have to get them weighed in boxes so I can figure shipping costs. If anyone has any tips, please share. So far, I have listed the cutest little Tommy swim trunks and a blu-ray Spider-Man 3 DVD. I just hope I get some bids. Tomorrow, I'm going to list one of the pairs of shoes I just bought because the damn things don't fit and I can't get a refund. (The really cute heels don't fit, either!!) I'm also going to list a Maya Wrap and an Evenflo baby carrier. If anyone is interested and wants links, I should have them posted by tomorrow evening.

I am so bored lately. No school, no homework. I have so much time and nothing to do...

I'm a good kid...

That's what the drive-thru guy at Burger King tells me. Oh, wait... he calls me "kiddo". Nevermind.
But, I'm still a good kid. So, what have I done to be such a good kid? I'll show you. I bought this for my Mom. (She's the biggest Elvis freak ever.)$90 later, I'm the good one for today. And at Christmas, I will also be the good kid!











I took the boys out to play for a while tonight after it cooled down a bit. I pulled the old baby swing out of the garage and hosed it down so Benny could swing. He never has before and he had a lot of fun!! So, I got a video of it. No sound; it's just my digital camera. At the end, I told them all to wave bye-bye, so watch Benny going crazy waving.

2 Posts in one day??

Yeah. Pretty amazing.
So, I won the shoes I was bidding on. See, I have crazy-big feet. Not girly at all. I wear a size 10 1/2. Eew. Well, a lot of companies only make half sizes up to 9 1/2. The companies that do make 10 1/2's don't send many of them anywhere near me because it is so hard finding any. So, for most shoes, I rely on online shopping, and eBay is my favorite. That is usually a lot easier. When I have a bidding war with someone on eBay, though, I usually always have the thought in my mind that I am warring with a transvestite. I mean, how many women besides me really have feet this large?
So, Todd and I took the boys swimming at his sister's boyfriend's house this evening. It was pretty nice. I didn't swim, though. I knew that I would be having to deal with finding all the clothes and towels for everyone while dealing with the baby, and sadly, that takes the fun out of things like that for me. Much less stressful to just deal with all of their crap and not have to be wet and change my own clothes and all of that.
We stopped at 7-11 on the way home for ice cream. Every time we go there, Luc asks to have his picture taken with this big hot dog. Since I had my camera today, we did it. He loves it!

New clothes...

I bought some new clothes for when I get a job. I am excited because they are cute, and make me feel cute. I also bought some new shoes. I bought a boring pair of regular black shoes at WalMart. I also bought this really cute pair of flats. I'm planning on winning the bid for these super cute heals. Do not bid on these. I will hunt you down.
There really isn't much else to say today. I went grocery shopping this morning after I bought some clothes. Prices are insane. I ordered meat and have to pick it up this afternoon.
Today is the first day of yet another diet. Yeah. I had to buy all of my clothes in a 16-18. Eew. And some things were tight... Eew, again. So, I made an extra effort not to buy any junk food at the grocery store. Only bottled water to drink. When I go pick up my meat, I'm going to buy more fruits and veggies.
That's it for today...

The job search...

has begun... I updated my crappy resume on a local job search site. Then I searched the jobs. I found two that sound good for me. I emailed my resume to one of the places, but the other I have to apply in person. I hate how my resume is on that site. You have to fill in your information, and then it automatically compiles it into resume form. The resume I email is much better. So, how amazing would it be to get a job out of the first two positions I find?
Todd Jr is fascinated with myspace right now. (Yeah, my kids have their own myspace accounts. I have all comments set to be approved and I check everything before he does just to be sure he doesn't see anything he shouldn't.) He is also fascinated with Weird Al. So, guess what his layout is? Yep. Weird Al. Guess what video he has on his page? Yes, again, Weird Al. What a weird kid. Weird Al is actually going to be in a festival in a town pretty close to us next week. I just remembered to look up ticket prices. $24 - $37. Hmm... I don't know if it's worth that to me. This could easily turn into a $100 evening. I know he would love it, though.
Who wants to tell me who they are voting for in the upcoming presidential election? Are you a Republican or Democrat? Are you very political? I just took a Government class this past semester and I have become much more... aware. More on that next time...

My Friday...

Pretty much just laundry. That will be my weekend, too. Sad. See, we don't have a dryer- wait, that's not true. We don't have a working dryer. So, these past ten months (wow, ten months!!) that I've been in school, Todd has been in charge of laundry. He washes it, takes it to his Mom's to dry it, balls it all up in the basket, and leaves it to wrinkle before I could fold it and put it away. I just handle everything else around the house. Fair workloads, right? Hmm, not so much.
So, since he has kept up the laundry, why is my weekend going to be spent on laundry? Well, see, him being caught up on laundry means that our laundry closet is full of dirty blankets and pillows because his mom won't let him dry those things at her house and we don't have a clothes line to hang them out. That has to wait for me to take to the laundry mat to use the huge washing machines. Okay.
Well, since the laundry closet is full, we had dirty laundry in a hamper in my kitchen next to the basement door (the washer and broken dryer are in the basement). Somehow that one hamper overflowed to the floor. I washed, dried, folded, and put away FOUR loads of laundry in the last two days, and STILL HAVE SIX LOADS LEFT!! Yes, six. Not a typo.
See, now I should have done my chores the same way as him, and I could be watching him scrub moldy dishes that have been sitting since Christmas!! I am a bit irritated with him. I love him, but I would like to suffocate him with a dirty, smelly pillow!

A conversation with Luc...

Luc: Why do we have a baby?
Me: Cause he's cu-ute!
Luc: How come?
Me: Cause we love him.
Luc: Why did the doctor take him out of your tummy?
Me: Would you rather we left him in there?
Luc: You should put him in that big hole.
Me: What big hole?
Luc: You know, the big hole the doctor got him out of.
Yep...

Wednesday...

Not too much going on today. Me and the husband slept in a bit later than usual. It was pretty nice. After we got up, I made lunch for the boys. Yeah, we slept late enough that it was time to make lunch. Nice, huh? Then, we went over to my husband's parents house for a little while. We had a short visit, then we dropped Luc off at Todd's aunt's house to spend the night. Once we got home, the news was on. Apparently, we will have thunderstorms tomorrow, again. So, I decided to mow the lawn since it will be out of the question tomorrow. Our lawn looked like shit. Todd should have mowed it over the weekend while we (the boys and I) were at my Grandparent's house. So, while I was mowing, a guy showed up to put up the FEDERSPIEL for Sheriff sign I requested. Then, I took a shower when I was done mowing.
So, I have this awesome spa body scrub. I only use it when I feel really good about myself, or when I want Todd's hands on me. I love the stuff, but it's expensive, so I rarely use it... I got a forwarded email from my sister in law today. You know the ones that everyone forwards. Reasons why you should tell people you love them and why you should cherish each day. Well, it made me think. The email said to use your good china for small things like losing a pound and wear your special perfume to go to the post office just because it makes you feel good. Why save everything for tomorrow when it isn't guaranteed? On top of that, I've been reading Matt Logelin's blog for a long time now. He recently posted about having to start removing some of his wife's toiletries. Thinking about having to take Todd's things out of the bathroom if something happened to him or him having to remove my things really upset me... So, after considering all of these thoughts in my mind, I used my expensive body scrub, and the perfume I rarely wear but Todd likes. Today should be just as special as any other day.

The first post...

So, I've blogged on xanga and myspace. I've also been a member of a few forums. It just takes up a lot of time, and then I get busy and lose touch. So, this is where I want to be. I think.
I am a busy mom. My husband and I have three little boys. Our oldest is 8.5, will be 9 this fall; our middle son is 4.5, will be 5 this fall; and our youngest son is 13 months old. I get asked all the time if we'll have more or when we're going to try for a girl. Honestly, I think that would throw off everything we have going right now. I think three is it for us, but don't quote me on that. My husband has made it quite clear that he isn't interested in having any more children, especially once he's 30. (He's 28 now.) His Dad was 30 when he was born, and he just feels that's too old. He wants to be a part of everything that happens in our boys lives. On the other hand, I'm just not sure. I can see another baby in our lives in a few years, but I am also quite happy with the three boys we have and the happiness we have as a family. So, in time we'll know what we're going to do.
I am a college student. I actually took the final exam for the last class I was taking for the Spring Semester this morning. I will be going back this fall. I will graduate this coming spring with an associates degree in accounting. Then, in two years, I will have my bachelors degree. I've been back in school since last August and I am so happy to have the rest of the summer off. I have worked so hard these last three semesters. While being a mom, I went to school full time and got a 4.0 GPA three semesters in a row! I am so proud! Maybe a little braggy, but it is a great accomplishment to me.